Placement

We got her!  OMG I need to go get her now!  I am a planner.  I have had the diaper bag packed and in the room that will be for the baby for the last two weeks now, the car seat has been in the car for a week, and the house is spotless.  Sometimes the state drops them off to your door and sometimes you go pick them up.  This baby was not in awesome shape and there were a bunch of discharge instructions from the hospital so I am going to get her.  I hug Jimi and Micah,while repressing the urge to scream like a teenage girl, and then get into the car.  I drive as close to the speed limit as is possible in my excitement.  Thank God for cruise control because without it I am sure I would have broken the sound barrier on the way to the hospital to pick her up.  On my way there the case manager tells me that she is in the PICU ( pediatric intensive care unit) and a little bit about what happened to her.  My heart is broken for this baby.  She also tells me that bio mom is there and we can do our ice breaker right away.  But, by the time I got to the hospital mom had snuck out the door.  No ice breaker for me.  I walk to the room where the baby is.  I peek into the crib... She is so tiny,  so beautiful, that's it I'm hooked.  I hold her while the doctor and the case manager flood me with information.  I feed her a bottle and put her into the car seat and we are headed home.