December-holidays are hard

December started off really great!  On December 1st we celebrated the babies first birthday!  She is getting so big and she has really come along way from where she was.  After her party my mom and I took the boys to the zoo to see their holiday light show.  (We do it every year.)  Adam and Micah LOVED the talking Giraffe!  It was a lot of fun and some good memories were made.  The next weekend we moved to a new house.  Adam has been a bit of a mess ever since.  He kept asking me if he was going to stay with me.  I told him yes we were all going to be in the new house together but he still needs lots of reassurance.  At this point, December 8th,  its been just over one month since he has seen his bio mom.   He no longer asks for her but he is getting more and more depressed as time goes by.  Fast forward another week, still depressed but very excited for Santa to bring him a red scooter.  I keep asking him what he wants and all he says is a red scooter.  No toys.  A red scooter!  I keep telling him he can ask for more but he wont.  a few days before Christmas he bursts into tears and I ask what is wrong.  He shakes his head and says " I'm just so sad if Santa won't bring me a red scooter!"  I tell him we have to wait and see till Christmas but that he was a very good boy so I bet he will get one.  He replied  "no, I'm bad"  So I try to reassure him and get him distracted with other things (thank heaven he is only 3 and is easily distracted)  I set up a therapy intake for him and that takes place on Christmas eve.  He will get therapy.  YAY! 
CHRISTMAS MORNING...
     Well folks let me just say that Santa came!  And guess what?!  He brought Adam a red scooter!!!!  He was so excited!  Pure joy!  He got a lot of other presents too.  Anyway, after all the presents are done Adam bursts into tears and runs off to his room and goes back to bed.  So I go to talk to him.  He won't let me hold him, he just says he is feeling sad and its making his tummy hurt.  So He falls asleep for another  hour and then when he wakes up we head off to see more family.  Happy Adam is back.  But ever since then he still doesn't want me to hold him.  If I ask for a hug he says high five, if I go to give him a kiss he dodges.  Last night my friends came over.  He was happily playing with the guys but when my friend who is a girl starts to play with him he slaps her!  Well bedtime for Bonzo... emotional or not you don't hit girls.  But its hard!  I asked him if he was happy here and wants to stay with us and he really thought about it.  Then he said " I don't want to go anywhere else..."   So now we just wait and see.  His therapy can not start until we have a Child Family Team meeting (CFT) but our case worker quit on December 5th and we are still not assigned a new one, the case manager has to be at a CFT.  So finger crossed we will get one soon.  And keep our "middle monster" in your prayers as Christmas was hard for him without his mom. 
    Lee "tiny titan" is doing well not seeing her mom.   Then again I have had her since she was 8 weeks old so, to her, I am mom.  She got the hang of opening presents fast lol.   I could have saved a fortune and just wrapped empty boxes for her.  The wrapping is all she cared about.  Micah got everything he asked for and had a happy Christmas.  He woke up at 4:30 am!!!!!!  NOOOOOOOOO  mommy was up till 1am making sure everything was perfect!!!!  Sleepy me, sleepy spouse, happy kids so it was totally worth it!  Until next time.   

November

    November was a pretty good month!  The weather is beautiful and we spent a lot of time out at the park!  The case manager made a paperwork error that has stopped visits with bio mom indefinitely and the kids adjusted really well to not seeing her.  The middle of the month we went and did one of our family traditions.  We took a long drive and saw a big tree get turned on and ate candied apples.  There was also a free concert that night!  We heard Philip Phillips sing the song "Home" , which is our song to the foster babies.  I held them both the whole time he sang, and I would be a liar if I tried to tell you I didn't cry.  It was perfect.  Then we had Thanksgiving at our house and went out to my mother in laws for Turkey tacos on black Friday!  ( That's another one of our traditions)  It was all going really well and then December came along...